A week and a half ago, Kevin lost his job. Funny how things can change so suddenly. Although people are apparently losing their jobs left and right (so I’m told… it’s easy to miss this stuff when you don’t watch the news), I really thought Kevin’s job was secure. Why? Because it was a bad job to begin with. It didn’t pay well and everyone there hated it and dreamed of walking out. And a lot of people did quit. So, I figured in my own faulty human reasoning that we were “safe”. We were barely scraping by, but at least we didn’t have to worry about not having a job.

Funny how when we put our security in something other than the Lord and His goodness, it doesn’t hold up.

Well, let’s just say I didn’t find it very funny last Wednesday. I kind of freaked out. Not exactly a pillar of faith. The Lord bears LONG with me. How many times has He come through in our finances? And yet I still struggle to trust Him! Ironic enough, I had just taught the lesson on WORRY for the Sermon on the Mount class with the kids.

So I’ve been going through this cycle of looking at the waves and sinking, then looking at Jesus, then looking at the waves and sinking, then looking at Jesus, then looking at the waves…

Well, Kevin still doesn’t have a job. But I now do. A job working, once again, with my two best friends Shannon and George Clooney (HA!). It’s a temporary job.. only until May… which is good because I don’t want to be away from my kids long term. But now Kevin can have a month or so to spend time with them, and I know this will be a precious season for him. We’re praying the timing will work out perfectly and there won’t be too much overlap between my job and whenever he gets a job.

The Lord is good and in control. If only I could get to the place where I could ALWAYS say that with complete confidence, with out an ounce of worry or unbelief.  I am so thankful He doesn’t give up on me.

Learning to lean…